I took some pills a while ago
then a while ago,
more
and a while ago again.

I found my friend

I found a pause of silence
of throbbing

of expectation and suspense, and surrender
and it felt so fucking good
to be so fucking lost
that I cried
and cried
and Sighed a simple
tender
liquid sigh
until all my joints cracked
and quivered-
until my throat felt tight
eyes wet,
draining
dripping.

My friend,
my friend
my one
friend stood, hunched, leaned, kissed

And cried with me.