Are We Our Names?

Or the roles we play on earth’s soil? Or the soil we play as? Itemized by nomencalture, participation, or act

DO NOT PERCEIVE

"i am the Self that i perceive myself to be which is to say i exist"
"i am the Self that you perceive me to be which is to say i exist as long as you perceive me"
"you exist because i perceive you which is to say that you exist as long as i perceive you"
what shame to be as fragile as a You unperceived by an Other

perceived as the concept of a future
as a concept shifting towards fruition, a speck in the womb, the warm hand feeling for a love so unconditional it exists before the object of its affections can be perceived
as the thing-ness of a birthed human
as an object that can cry and break
as an object that can make one cry and break
as an object that can break and can make one cry as they hold the broken parts, the broken loops, the broken codes of failing, plump body perceiving its own aftermath
as the thing-ness of an exited human
as a concept shifting towards an ancestral acceptance, a guide through life from death, with gold coins over eyes and mouth reflecting back unseeable, unmentionable truths
perceived as the concept of a past

Your memories are yours

Memory	Fragments
First Kiss	maple syrup sticky fingers tree boy running kiss home church pews childhood first altar touching lips hitting soft peach knees
Walking Home	church childhood different homes schools apple tree road walking girls running houses burning white gates divorce
Most Joy	cradled child apricot joy blanket unconditional heartache pure cries remembered most
Comfort	warm milk loved ones peppermint tea grounding mindfulness childhood blanket embraces nostalgia books
First Love	love rooftop hardness gospel touch roaming discovery wet legs first
Recognizing Self	emerging self adulthood funeral homes recognizing unanswered letters loved ones mail mirrors grief speeches lost friends fading loves hard road esteem
First Funeral	first brother youth apricots lilies divorce parental absence emails unanswered loved ones
First Heartbreak	fragile fingers first bruised pride heart cold kisses voicemails deleted heart loneliness
Coping	suppress mindfulness avoidance impulse self isolation loved ones distraction soothing substance binging denial eating rage spending disassociation working over binging under harm
Fears	abandonment judgement isolation pain embarassment doubt alone
Identity	worth reflection known self passions purpose
Childhood	trauma friendship library hangout hallway fights alarms parent found family growth
School	glue sticks tissue boxes fall leaves construction hall paper pass zig-zag plastic scissors childhood books authority alarms youth bell plane playground friends story time period uniform tease seasonal bully routine children
Accomplishments	graduation ceremony first exam gilded trophy plastic diploma medal relationship pride
Change	questioning crisis

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Drag me!

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Inspiration

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is this stream of consciousness an ocean
belly up with foam - a sargosso sea
garbage patch. or thinking outside the box
[within the box]?

Touch
- Slippery
  - Whipped cocoa butter slipping from fingerpad to nailbed, melting into oil and the body's warmth
  - Body wash slickness and bare feet on smooth cold tiles
  - Thick cream froth thinned by spit
- Rough
  - Stomach slush burning the throat raw
- Sharp
  - The wobbling, blinding sun singeing lenses
  - A thin sharp sheet slicing into the finger's side
  - Cold sting on burning thighs, numb sizzle skin salved by slap and hand heel rubs
  - Blistering split tongue tip hot over grazed canine
  - The mouth's corner, abrazed, wetted with saliva to soften the dry, scabbed faultline's grind
Hear
- Soft
  - The gentle squish crunch of damp October leaves
  - The humming fan; its strobbing whirling breeze
- Neutral
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- Hard
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Sight
- Colors
  - Red
    - Deep bespeckled ruby blood from nostril to cleft to chin
    - Sun beemed through eyelids
    - Pulverized tomato mashed into thinned pulp and loosened skin
    - Freshly sliced flesh, torn muscle, severed tendons, degloved fingers
    - Freshly sliced strawberries
    - A scattering of cardinals & friends - coppery-tailed, summer, rubythroat - juveniles bursting mid-flight
  - Orange
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  - Yellow
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  - Green
    - Blades of fresh sharp grass
  - Blue
    - A red-legged honeycreeper, a stellar's jay, a white-throated magpie jay, and an ultramarine flycatcher - all caged beside a window, a mocking glass barrier to sky
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  - Indigo
    - Lobelia
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  - Violet
    - Consciousness: or a thousand-petalled lotus
    - A crown of wisteria and lavender knotted with root-kinks and soil.
    - A sky of purple honeycreepers, plum-coloured starlings, and costa’s hummingbirds
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  - Black
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  - Gray
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  - White
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- Phenomenon
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- Patterns
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- Miscellaneous
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Smell
- Fruity
  - Soft, half-smushed bananas
  - Tender, sweating mango sliced open
- Lemon
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- Fragrant
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- Minty and peppermint
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- Sweet
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- Toasted and nutty
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- Woody and resinous
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- Chemical
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- Pungent
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- Sickening or decaying
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Taste
- Sweetness
  - Thick honey sticky fingers on the tongue's tip
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- Sourness
  - Squeezed lemon ichor across fish flesh or glass rims
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- Saltiness
  - Sweat collected at one's upper lip or the inner thigh of a lover
  - Grains of sand stuck to the heel of a hand that swipes across mouth and shoulder, kissed away rerettably by an unsuspecting friend
- Bitterness
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- Savoriness
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Balance
- Imbalanced
  - White Tea
- Balanced
  - White Tea

REMOVE TRAUMA

× Object permanence! Not being sensed does not mean a person or thing no longer exists or will not return.

× Object im/permanence! Without your will or knowledge, some things and some people will not return, either by choice or death.

× Warning! Indicates a warning that might need attention.

× Danger! Indicates a dangerous or potentially negative action.

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Who Is Welcomed? (WIP)

Are We Our Names?

DO NOT PERCEIVE

Your memories are yours

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Touch

Hear

Sight

Smell

Taste

Balance

REMOVE TRAUMA